Matt has been reading a book by John Eldredge (big surprise, right? Ha.) called 'Walking with God' since the summer. It has been instrumental in how he seeks God and spends time with Him. It has also been a conversation starter between us about how we look at our relationships with God.
I think we're both at a place where we are really craving and longing for real and genuine intimacy with God and with others. We're no longer satisfied with relationships/friendships that are linear and don't go deeper. We want to share, truly share, what God is doing in our lives with those we love and care about and also know what God is doing in their lives.
For me, this would like authenticity and transparency (there I go using that word again) and a vulnerability. I want to be able to tell someone that I'm not doing okay in response to a "How are you doing?" and know that they really want to know the answer. That's not to say that every relationship I have needs to be a deep, serious relationship--I believe there is a place for every kind of connection, but in those relationships I consider close, I want them to be that. Honest and thoughtful sharing and accountability. Speaking the truth in love to each other. Sharing each others' burdens.
And I'm also at a place where I want to figure out what it means to rest in the Lord. To sit at His feet and just be. Listen to Him. Know His word more and know Him more, yes, but also not be so consumed with feeling like I "need to be" serving or "should be doing" more that I miss simply being in His presence.
I want to be fully present in my encounters with Him and to respond to the Holy Spirit's promptings in my life. To be Jesus instead of do Jesus, so to speak.
I don't know how this looks or should look. These thoughts are all relatively new and rolling around in my head, so please forgive the rambly-ness to them. In my effort to start somewhere with all of this stuff, I wanted to share with all of you. (The few of you who still may read! Love you all, actually.)
So there you go. Just a little bit of where I am right now and what I feel like God is desiring to show me and do in my life. Let's see where it goes!
Blessings and love,
Erin
ps. what do you think about this? did it make sense? please share any thoughts you may have or any insights--I would love to hear them!
3 comments:
I think it makes sense. It's about growing into your faith...not about finding your faith, right? About developing the type of relationship with God that's more akin to what we know earthly friendships to be? (Sort of?)
It has helped me to feel connected to God in that type of way by doing something my great-grandma used to say she did...continually converse with Him. Instead of PRAYING in the traditional sense (though we do this still at bedtime, naptime, mealtime, etc.), I kind of hold a running dialogue with God. It's hard sometimes to find dedicated time to just BE (other than bedtime) since I have little ones...and I know this is just a stage in life...but is much easier to come bit-by-bit to Him and share things as they come as you would with a friend. I find this is sort of "resting in Him" as well, you know? Sharing burdens and joys.
I think...don't get too hung up on what you THINK it should be like or what you THINK you should be doing because I think that every relationship is unique, including people's relationship with God.
Good luck!
i don't have much to say, but i did want to tell you that i DO think it makes sense :)
I just want to let you know that I AM GAME!
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